Ok guys i have a question for all of you folk out there thats tuned in...Have you ever played a fool before?? Sure. We all have. At one point of life for our family, friends, jobs, and more importantly for the people we fall for or genuinely care for, we play a fool. You purposely miss all the signs in the world that tells you that is just not ment for you. You ignore everything negative about your situation, but deep down inside, the truth eats at you like the bleach that eats your favorite Red Tshit that you FORGOT to take out of the white clothes pile on laundry day. Why do we do this? Because we all want to think that we all dictate what goes on in our lives....we dont like to be told we are wrong...and deep down inside ...we just dont want to be lonely in the end? So its like a win loose situation right?? lol...well i realized today that I am a fool, but it isnt to any livig being in the world(or is it?). I play a fool for LOVE...?Well isnt it the same?" You would ask? No. It isnt. See when you play a fool for someone, eventually that person leaves and after all the heartbreak you encountered will die off...When you play a fool for LOVE...the SOMEBODY can become ANY and EVERYBODY because your in love with an EMOTION that a human can give u, not the actual person. So you date or deal with other peoples bullshit not for THEM but for the emotion that you feel only another human can give you....And being that LOVE (esp n the gay black world) is non existant..I realize that the only reason why I put up with some of this shit I do is not because I want the person...I want the emotion the person has deep inside...Kinda like a cereal box with a prize on the inside. You hate the cereal but buy it because you want the prize inside.....None the less....Your still being a FOOL...and tonight I realize I cant be that fool anymore. Yeah I have a heart to love....I have a big heart...But I can no longer be a slave to LOVE anymore..cause its making me hate all of the participants whos holding this prize in the box. ..So its tim to say Goodbye Farewell to that quest of FINDING it...Im not saying that prize in no longer in a box...im just saying I rather just enjoy eating pancakes instead...Just a food for thought....
This is A.E. telling LOVE to...Catch me if u can! Lol.....
